It is the 1st of July. This is the day when the milk in the fridge officially expires. It also marks the halfway point of 2016, which served as a self-imposed deadline for launching this website.
The official real-life launch will happen on the 16th when a select company of everyone I know will gather to eat grilled meat and dance around the coals. Hosting a barbecue is a socially acceptable way of performing sacrifice, so both neighbours and gods should be mollified. If, subsequently, Chance & Physics does not develop the way I want (by gradually becoming sentient and taking over the world), that will be entirely the butcher’s fault.
In early January I made a list of goals for this year. I was in Finland, visiting family and staying in a cottage by a lake. The temperature fell down to -32° Celsius, yet it kept snowing. It was mostly dark, with daylight reduced to few hours, and when I went outside, there were stars and white silence stretching for miles. That must be what being in space feels like.
Conceived under circumstances where time seemed like a foreign concept, my list of goals was ambitious. Some points were simple enough (‘read 116 books’), but all of them required time and dedication (‘run a half-marathon’). Two thirds through the list there was ‘have a kickass website’.
Here it is. Here is my stab at the 15 minutes of shame.
Johnny Cash wrote numerous love notes to June Carter Cash during the thirty-five years of their marriage. Here is one disguised as a to-do list. I can’t help but hope he was successful with at least some of the stated goals.
For the rest of this year I intend to update the blog section of Chance & Physics in two ways. One is the obvious, sane, chronologically accurate manner where each entry is posted on the day it was written. The other is moving backwards in time and going through my recently acquired archive. Practically, this means that tomorrow I shall post both the entries for July 2nd and for June 30th. Then it will be July 3rd and June 29th. I shall not insult you by listing further dates.
This Friday is the surface of the mirror, the point where objects and their reflections meet. As weeks go by, the entries will become further and further removed from each other, until I get to the point of celebrating two New Year’s’ at once.
There is no profound meaning to this system, other than trying to cheat death. I have got a few texts pre-written and I should be able to create the remaining from drafts. The idea of starting a website has been on my mind for so long, that there are pages of material waiting to be published. So they will be.
I would like to finish and to start by quoting Wonderfalls written by Bryan Fuller (him of Hannibal fame):
The prose probably aren’t as lovely and crisp, but I finally figured out my fifteen words… Hope it’s okay. ‘Daughter Jaye lives in Niagara Falls. Her blurb and life are a work in progress.’
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Not a Day Without an Adventure. July 1st, Day Thirty-One: Launching a website.
I had a LiveJournal when I was seventeen. That was in the prehistoric times before Facebook, Twitter and other social networks. The main idea behind the blog was to share your news with the community and to read their updates. Said community normally consisted of your real-life friends. At least, at first.
What happened was getting to know a few wonderful writers and amazing people (those two entities form a Venn diagram). LiveJournal also provided enough training that my texts acquired a style of their own, and enough reading to receive an informal education.
I am not sure what is going to come out of this project but, right now, I find it exciting. I hope you get to share my sentiment, reader.
Current album: Sia, This Is Acting
Current book: Phoebe Gloeckner, The Diary of a Teenage Girl: An Account in Words and Pictures
Current TV series: Scream Queens, Series 1 (2015)